Welp Im coming up on two months here at the farm, and almost two months being sober. It’s been a roller coaster of emotion. Some days I feel like a million bucks and then there are some days I feel like shit. Ive stooped pretty low to try to move back home, putting pressure on my Mom and close friends to have me move in with them. I still wouldn’t have a car and I would be bored taking up space on their couch. Idle hands are terrible in my world. Im also afraid of moving back home or even out on my own. I’m just going to go back to smoking weed, it works for me. At least I think so. I think about smoking weed every single day, it’s annoying. The Doctors haven’t prescribed me the right meds yet. I still have some chemical imbalance in my brain that I know nothing about. I just want to be happy.